Ode to Myself

Learn to be okay with continually discovering yourself.

For 2019, I didn’t set any New Year’s resolutions. Although I did try to be more focused on figuring out who I was. For years I felt like I suffered from some kind of identity crisis. Many things are factors for that (I’ll leave that for therapy) but the short of it is: I let fear control my life. Many of the things I wanted with my life I stopped myself from doing, because of fear. The result of this, was feeling like I had no identity. I didn’t allow myself to live. Staying comfortably complacent was my life. In 2019 that began to change.

As my therapist and I reflected on the past year, I had this moment of awareness where it hit me, “Wow… I really did all that?!”. I felt really proud of myself.

I am writing this post as a way to “pay Ode to myself” for the challenges and the changes I embraced in 2019. For the first time in my life I’m discovering who I want to be and what I want with my life. It may have taken a while but I begin to peel back the layers of fear and see some of the things I wanted for myself. This past year was one of most life changing years of my life. Some of these changes many of you already know about but somethings I haven’t talked about publicly. As I pay ode to myself, I am happy to share my journey through 2019 with you.

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